Dang! So much has happened since 2017 when I first ventured into Transcendance.
There’s so many steps in between yet what’s beautiful is how much growth has happened since.
2017 jumped into becoming the CEO of my 9 year on the side dental tech company.
I’d raised my 4 kids and got them into elementary school and “thought” I was confident.
Deep down, I felt rejected
was scared shitless of losing everything. My business, my kids, my family, you name it
questioned myself daily
loaded with doubts & uncertainty
wondered if people actually liked me
had severe conflict between being a mom vs being an Entrepreneur – very torn between the 2
woke in the middle of the night with panic attacks
deep depression feeling I may not ever have my next vision of the life I ultimately want
very little time to spend with my kids and hubby or go on vacations I want
didn’t dare spend the money I made just in case there was a dry spell (scarcity mindset) even though we made really good income
terrified of failing and fail I did over and over again
manifested bankruptcy which caused severe suicide ideation
made myself numb so I wouldn’t have to hurt anymore (imagine all the positive emotions I missed out on because of it)
Now, 2022:
I LOVE ME
I love my life, my family
I embrace my failures and learn from them
I’ve succeeded tjme and time again
I travel all around the world with women and bring my family with me and meet me where I go
I have a rich as F*ck mindset
I’m not perfect and that’s ok
I embrace and welcome my emotions both negative and positive
I fullheartedly feel!!
I dance, I laugh deep in my core, I hum, I giggle, I take jokes
I really enjoy being present and am fully in my body!
Enjoy and invite pleasure – even too much to handle at times!
I still:
Have fears
Feel guilt
Am uncomfortable at times
Admit I’m wrong
am not perfect
Make mistakes
fail
don’t have EVERYTHING I want (but deeply believe eventually it’s possible and WILL have it)
Have moments I do exhaust myself
Get on my phone after hours
Is my life perfect yet? No but it darn well is pretty close to what I envisioned 5 years ago when I started on this journey.
I’ve probably got only a handful more desires to reach so I guess it’s time to start dreaming even bigger again!
Transformation is not easy but staying stuck and where you are, is even harder. What would you like your story to look like? How would you like to feel? What are you willing to do to get there?
